I had all but given up on love. Nope...nothing...God hasn't put someone on this earth for me that will cherish me. It was my duty in life to care for everyone else and make them feel as I would like to. So I gave and gave and gave until I had no more to give and I couldn't endure the torture any longer. I gave up. I gave up on the dream of feeling like this with him. However, deep down inside I knew there was something better. I saw my parents and grandparents and knew there was something better. And you know what........I found it. Joe is the most incredible man I have ever met. He is so much like me it is scary and we see life very much the same way. He treasures the world around him and treats it with wonderful gentleness and kindness. He treats me that way and treats my kids that way too. My kids love him and so do my friends. When I was married....we had few friends together and I was always on edge as to what awful thing he would say and I would have to apologize profusely so as to not offend my precious friends.
Joe proves himself in the words that he says and actions he does rather than the amount of cool toys he possesses. The other night we were having a discussion and the thought of Joe leaving came over me and I was overwhelmed with sadness. Not that I fear him leaving but the fact I truly love Joe and I can't imagine life without him now. It was then I realized that my dreams had been realized and the love of my life has been with me for the last year. I told my best friend last night as we went through the house for the last time together. She looked at me and exclaimed, "and you are just now realizing this. I have known it for awhile now. You just show it."
Ahhhh....the love bug took 36 years to bite...but it has bit and I hope it doesn't ever let go.
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