Well it happened. Almost 2 years and it finally has happened. I got a letter in the mail last week from the Guardian ad Litem informing me that Jim has completed the requirements to have the kids over night. This weekend is the 1st weekend. I have had so much to work through in the last week. In some ways I am looking forward to it as I have haven't had a weekend to my self since Dec of 2006 when I went to my brothers wedding in CA and Joe and I haven't been a lone as a couple for more than 24 hours ever. However, I am afraid. Jim's behavior in the past in regards to the kids hasn't been favorable. STill isn't sometimes. However, because the kids are going to Iowa....I know they will be well fed however, very limited to their self care...which won't help much. I am not looking forward to them coming back on Sunday as I know their welfare won't come first but everyone else....and the kids will be up late each night. The beginning of next week will be tough as they get adjust back to home again. However, we have a four day weekend to rest and rejuvenate...which Momma needs a lot right now.
I just wonder if every time he has the kids for a weekend if he will run home or his parents run up.....He just can't handle it alone and I know the kids will be under the care of their grandparents vs. their father.....I did everything when I went there and with me not there it will fall to mom. I know...I am so cynical...I love my kids and I know they need to have their grandparents but I also want a parent to take care of their needs. Oh boy...I still need to let go. Let God....and in the end the kids will see what is really going on. So in the mean time I grin and bear it. I think I better go pray.
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