A special anniversary

I don't know what to really call it.....liberation day.....realization day......the beginning of the end day.....got hit over the head with a 2x4 day but it is a special time for me. 2 years ago this week I realized things didn't have to always be crappy. I stopped working....I went on strike.....I stood up for myself....and you know what happened.....it crumbled...my marriage quit working. Do you know who was keeping it together...me....and when I quit working it crumbled...the other refused to change and to pick up the slack. Did I quit being a Mom...nope kids were well taken care of...I just refused to communicate in the regular way because it didn't help, I refused to pick up after him including the bed he let Kaitlyn puke in without changing the sheets, I refused to reward him with my presence when he pounded me with his words. It was such a scary time because I had to withdraw and he was so unpredictable. I couldn't have my space...even if I went and slept in the non-heated basement because of the verbal abuse the night before I still had him in my face listening through the heating vents to my cell phone calls to my parents. Then he freaking lied to me on top of it. It was a relief when he was called out to fly. AT least I could sleep in warmth and be in peace with the kids and we had so much fun when he was gone. Adam and I would get a movie and we would cover up on the couch and he would fall asleep watching the movie. It was such a special time for me. However I dreaded the days Jim would be home and when he disappeared to his parents for a few days it was wonderful except for the fact when I didn't know when he would be home and when he wouldn't.

I am so happy I made the decision to get out of the marriage. Scary, happy time at the same time...but in these two years it has been so peaceful and happy!!! I can't believe it has been 2 years.